need

You know that my feeling ?!

i will tell you about my feeling, ya !

when i am just waiting to get home into my room, close the door, fall into bed. just let everything out that me keep in all day. that feeling of desperation. i'm so tired. tired of everything, tired of nothing. i just want someone to be here and tell me its' OKAY ! 

But none is going to be here !

i know i have to be strong to my self, because no one can fix me, right ? but i'm tired, tired of being strong ! for once i just want it to be easy. to be simple. to be helped. to be saved.

But i know i won't be

but i'm still hoping, still wishing, and i'm staying strong and fighting with tears in my eyes. fighting.

oh god, i miss my childhood :'(

because, i'm so tired with all of my problems, i miss go to sleep without anything in my mind.

but, i need someone really love me :')